its been a long time since i've blogged, just thought i shall now that my heart's still beating fast..
i was at the taxi stand outside queensway shopping centre earlier, with two friends. i noticed a transvestite. he misunderstood me and shouted, "i wonder why butch (referring to me since i have short hair) stare at us but they cannot accept a transvestite".
i felt scared inside as he kept saying that a few times with his friends saying derogatory remarks in malay. but i just stood there, waiting for my friend's car to come so that her parents can fetch her and my other friend home.
when my friends had left, something stirred in my heart. i could sense the brokenness in his voice and i knew i had to say something, though i was scared that this man and his friends were going to bash me up. but somehow i felt a strength in me and i spoke.. i told him that i heard what he was saying earlier. that im sorry if i had offended him. that actually i looked at him a bit longer because i thought he's beautiful. that i admire how he is brave to be what he likes and stand up for what he believes in. and then i smiled, and told him and his friends to have a good day.
i feel so good inside now, can't quite describe this feeling. yknw there are times in your life when you know you couldnt have done smth w/o God? this is exactly one of the those times. i know its definitely God who gave me the courage to speak. definitely, God is so good to me, that nothing bad happened to me and things turned out good. definitely, it was God working through me just now to encourage and speak to this man who certainly has been judged by others whom are less accepting of his choices.
dear God, use me more, further, in even more ways, to not judge but instead simply to encourage, care, speak life and love people the way You have loved me and the way You would have loved them too. :)